The Bogota Savanna

A long time ago, high up in the mountains, an ancient lake dried up, yielding the fertile soil and rich ecosystem of the montane Bogota savanna. Growing up in this cool wet climate, my brother and I bathed in tropical sunlight and torrential rains. We played in green fields, surrounded by the Andean hills, chasing butterflies and catching little frogs in the ponds.
We used small jars to trap the bumblebees that flew lazily amid the orange flowers.
It was scary. The bumblebees got mad. We feared they’d bite us or sting us and it would hurt like hell.
We’d collect them into Mother Jars: larger jars that were the bases where we kept our bumblebee colonies. The mouths of the mother jars were big, which made it tricky to transfer them. Sometimes they escaped.
Our game always ended when, having caught a dozen or so, one of us noticed that they weren’t doing so well: they just sat at the bottom of the Mother Jars, defeated. Sometimes they walked slowly in circles.
We never wanted to hurt them. We’d open the Mother Jars and release them—or, well, dump them, a black heap of tired bumblebees on the grass. We’d watch from afar as they recovered slowly and one by one flew away, unharmed—or so we hoped.
Dad planted nine palm trees around our house. “Alejandro, this is the tallest type of palm tree in the world,” he said. “In a hundred years, these palms will be very tall. You can tell your grandchildren that you planted them with me.”
The Andean condor—national symbol of about six different countries in South American, Colombia included—may be, along with the spectacled bear, the most stereotypical animal of the Andes. However, unless you count the logo of Colombia’s largest airline, I never saw any.
However, many birds still nested in the branches of the many types of plants that grew in the savanna. There were small hummingbirds with vivid colors. Small Andean sparrows (copetones) were everywhere.
They had brown, white, and orange feathers. I thought they were entirely unremarkable but now I think they were pretty.
Great thrushes (mirlas) in the garden woke us up with their melodious songs. They had pitch-black feathers and bright-orange legs and beaks.
Sometimes we saw white herons in the fields around our house. They were always distant, taking flight whenever we approached.
“They come from very far and only visit us temporarily,” said Mother. I always found them beautiful.
As the city grew, each year brought fewer herons.
Our biology teacher said that if you cut a rain worm in two, it grows again. I never tried it but I’ll admit that curiosity got the best of me and I did, however, once pour salt on a slug on a tree stump.
“It’s true,” I reported to my brother. “They burn! They disolve into a disgusting pool of slime.”
The slugs were small, though. The ones I’ve seen here, in Europe, are easily ten times bigger.
Having mentioned salt I must turn your attention to the Muiscas, the people who inhabited the savanna before us. The savanna has been kind to mankind for a very long time; one of the oldest remains of ancient settlements in America was found here, near Zipaquirá.
Our teachers told us that Muiscas were one of the most advanced civilizations in America, along with Incas, Mayas, and Aztecs. I don’t know if we believed it—it seemed a very distant fourth place.
The fertile, frequently flooding, soils of the savanna fed the Muiscas well. They lived in small villages spread all across the savanna and neighboring regions. Each village had a Cacique, the local chief, who paid tributes to the Zipa, ruler of the entire savanna, and beyond.
The Muiscas in the savanna were known as the “salt people”, because they mostly mined salt. They didn’t themselves mine gold, but their salt trade was so profitable, that they were swimming in gold; they became prodigious gold-workers. Today, Bogotans favor the exotic pink salt brought from the Himalayas.
The Muiscas spoke a language called Chibcha. They called the region “Bacatá”. Initially, the Spanish Kingdom established schools in native languages and provided Catholic instruction in Chibcha, but in 1770, the Spanish King officially banned Chibcha as part of a de-indigenization project, and the language dwindled. The ban remained in law for over two hundred years, until Colombia renewed its constitution. While many towns north of Bogotá, in Cundinamarca and Boyacá, preserved their original Chibcha names and Colombian slang incorporated many Chiba words, the language is long extinct.
The savanna has an endemic species of snakes, the savanna snakes (culebra sabanera). They are about thirty centimeters long. Luckily, we never really saw them—they live underground.
One time it rained hard for days and days, the soccer fields at school flooded, and the snakes came out! They were everywhere.
Some older kids managed to trap seven in a giant jar they stole from the school cafeteria. I have no idea how they did this. The added a bit of water and a few branches and leaves.
I peered safely through the glass and saw their little black scales with yellow spots and their little shinny eyes. The snakes shook frantically inside the jar, confused. They were super weird. I was fascinated.
I don't remember exactly how but, just before the end of the school day, I managed to convince the kids to let me keep the jar, along with its fantastic contents. I suppose the kids knew they couldn’t take the snakes home and I knew I had to.
I made sure the lid was sealed tight and barely managed to fit the jar inside my backpack. To do this, I had to leave everything else, all my books and pencils, at school. Who cares about homework? Not a kid who just acquired seven snakes!
The whole bus ride home I kept peeking in my backpack. The driver's assistant grew suspicious and when, eventually, my brother snitched, she figured she’d be better off pretending she never knew. It’s not like she was supposed to inspect children’s backpacks...
I got home and brought the jar to the garden. The snakes, inside the jar, looked sleepy. I freaked out, realizing they were dying.
I tried to punch some holes through the metal lid with a screwdriver, but all I managed was to scratch it. I was afraid of breaking the glass. I opened the lid and laid it on top of the mouth of the jar, leaving a small gap to let them catch a bit of fresh air. I rushed inside to look for some cloth I could fix to the jar and... completely forgot about the whole thing. Ah, the fleeting mind of a nine years old!
Right after he came home from work that night, my father came to my room. “What is Ana saying about some snakes?” he asked me.
Ana was the cleaning lady, who lived in our house, and who was absolutely certain that she didn't want anything to do with any snakes.
"Oh, shit, yeah!" I remembered. "The snakes!"
I rushed down to the garden, my father trailing behind. The jar was there all right, but the lid was resting on the ground besides it and... the snakes had vanished. I felt fascination and fear.
I started looking for them but dinner was served and my father grew impatient. I never found them.
I suspect that my Dad thought this was some strange type of joke; that I had invented the whole thing about the snakes, and persuaded or misled Ana, but I can’t say for sure.
We had many mosquitos. If you forgot to close the windows in the afternoon, at around five, you could also forget about getting any sleep that night. Those demons would fly into my room in the afternoon and wait patiently until all lights were off, and I was drifting into sleep, to come close with their annoying buzz. Many late nights, finally giving up, I’d turn on all the lights in my room and hunt those devils for what felt like hours. One night I counted seventeen kills.
Where there are mosquitos, there are often spiders.
Some were small harmless gray spiders. They were everywhere. If you laid on the grass to sunbathe, you could not avoid them.
But there were also some big scary ones! In the garden I found one that had a few bright red dots in its black body and long scrawny legs. I tried to catch it with a jar but she jumped so fast, that I freaked out and also jumped and threw away the jar. The jar broke against a rock and I decided I'd leave these spiders alone.
Well, a few years later one of these spiders decided to build her web outside my window, on the third floor of our house.
I didn’t like it. I wanted to get rid of her, but I couldn’t reach her web. I opened the nearest window and threw a few glasses of water. This mean spider, accustomed to the torrential rains that occasionally drenched the savanna, didn’t bulge. Had I been more entrepreneurial, I might have been able to reach her with a broom.
Instead, I gave her a name, Violeta. She became my pet.
She lived a long life —or at least long by the standards of spider lives— well fed by the never ending stream of mosquitos drawn by the light inside. In nights of teenage mysticism I looked out from the darkness of my room into the full moon and watched Violeta, in her web, in the foreground, keeping me company. I showed her to my friend and he said he thought she was cool.
Frogs also inhabited the savanna. You could find tadpoles in the ponds in their various stages of development. As they grew legs, they turned into bright-green frogs.
The savanna frogs were peaceful. Unlike bumblebees, snakes, or spiders, the frogs were harmless; unlike the birds, friendly.
To the Muiscas, frogs represented the human soul. Frogs are prevalent in Muisca art, often depicted abstractly, as rhombuses, which never really looked like frogs to me.
I found one jumping on the orange tiles outside the classroom and decided to keep her. I built her a little pen, with popsicle sticks, and gave her a piece of lettuce.
But the fleeting frogs died easily, leaving a dry mess behind, which was sad.
Water has always been precious in the savanna, and not just because of the little frogs. For the Muiscas, the most sacred place in Bacatá was a lagoon. I’ve researched this now that I live in Europe.
In 1535, near Quito, a Muisca, far away from home, likely travelling to exchange information with the Incas, further South, boasted to Europeans of the riches of his kingdom. The reports are somewhat conflicting, with some claiming that he was an ambassador and others that he had been captured. In any case, he told how, worshiping the goddess of the lagoon, his Lord, the Zipa, bathed in gold dust before diving into the cold waters, and those around him threw into the water all sorts of offerings (tunjos): gold artifacts, emeralds, and precious stones.
The most important relic of the indigenous people of Colombia is likely the Muisca Raft, a small representation of this ceremony discovered in a cave in 1969. Made in gold, it depicts a Cacique and ten other people on a raft, navigating the lagoon, bringing all the offerings for their gods.
This sparked the hunt for El Dorado. The Europeans’ thirst for the natives’ gold brought various independent expeditions —westwards from Venezuela, northwards from Quito, and southwards from Santa Marta— into the vast and impenetrable interior of the Andes.
The expedition from Santa Marta, nearing a thousand Spanish, followed the Magdalena river upstream and finally reached the savanna a few years later. Jaguars, caymans, snakes, tropical diseases, and the occasional poisoned arrow had reduced them to just over a hundred malnourished explorers when they finally reached the savanna. Records say even anteaters attacked the party, killing a horse.
But the hundred Europeans sufficed to conquer half a million peaceful Muiscas in the savanna, who didn’t much resist. They were also enough to bring diseases, which razed the savanna, killing roughly four of every five Muiscas. The Zipa was wounded in battle near the center of the savanna; he fled but soon succumbed, bleeding to death in the hills of Facatativá. His remains were only found about a year later, ravaged by the condors.
Bogotá (or, more precisely, Santa Fé de Bogotá) was founded in 1538, and the New Kingdom of Granada was established. More than ten million people now live in the savanna. Many of its rivers are now heavily polluted.
This sacred lagoon is called Guatavita. It lays on the southeastern part of the savanna, at over 3000 meters over the sea level, fairly close to the salt-mine cum Catholic church in Zipaquirá.
Several attempts were made, throughout the centuries, to drain it, to recover the golden artifacts. Even Von Humboldt visited, in 1801; he calculated that Guatavita could offer up as much as $300 million worth of gold. These attempts, however, never yielded much, leaving instead a long string of accidents and labourers’ deaths. In 1965 the Colombian government finally protected the area, making any future drainage attempts illegal.
In Bogota, summer is always two or three hours away; you just need to drive down from the mountains into the valleys.
Bogotans associate hot climate with holidays very strongly. This is very similar to the associations Europeans have with Summer. It’s very common, all year round, to just rent a summer house outside of Bogotá and go spend a long weekend reading, swimming in the pool with your friends, and avoiding getting eaten by the mosquitos.
My family used to own a coffee plantation. It was called “Badenia”. I only visited a few times, when I was very young, before they had to sell it for crumbs because the zone became very dangerous, due to the political situation with the guerillas. My mother never drank coffee, but she loved the scent of freshly ground coffee in the morning.
One of the few memories I have of Badenia was bathing in the creek that went through the plantation. As the sun was beginning to set, my father wanted us to leave.
I was young and stubborn and wanted to stay there playing. “Please, no, no, Daddy, I don’t want to go, can we please stay!”
As I played in the water, a wasp stung me on my knee. It hurt like hell and it made me cry.
My father said: “See? Why do you think I told you it was time to go?”
I wonder whether the reason I still remember this was the shock from the pain or the extraordinary confusion I felt, wondering how my father could have known that a wasp was bound to sting me, and why he had not warned me of this.
In Badenia we would often sit on the terrace at night, after dinner. My mother would read us stories as my brother and I looked at the fireflies (luciernagas) in the nearby trees.
Winter also comes to Bogota. There are the frosts from the El Niño phenomenon, where the temperature can drop to a few degrees below zero at night. The torrential storms sometimes bring heavy amounts of hail.
There are colder regions higher up in the mountains, but I never really visited them.
We also had plenty of moths, some as big as a small bird. You’d mostly see them at night, when you found them resting against a wall or tree, their wings wide open, displaying magical patterns with circles, a palette of dark grays, blues, and black. My mother told us that they brought good luck. I always thought they looked cool.
There were several different species of scarab beetles (cucarrones), of different sizes. The most common ones were slightly bigger than a garbanzo bean. They could fly, but not very gracefully, so they mostly stayed on the grass. When they flew near, you could hear their wings’ low buzz.
I often played with them. They were strong for their size; it was fun to trap one in your closed fist and feel it find its way through your fingers with its prickly legs. Their long gnarly legs had little claws that could almost scratch you.
You could always find a few cucarrones but, once or twice a year, for a week or two, they came out in swarms and the fields were teeming with them. You couldn't walk on the grass without stepping on them.
Some kids were terrified; cucarrones season was a nightmare for them. During the school break we would bring dozens of cucarrones from the soccer fields into the classroom and hide them in the lunch boxes or desk drawers of unsuspecting victims. Sometimes we’d wait for classes to start and release them at once.
A kid once tied a thread to the leg of a cucarrón. “I’m making a kite,” he said. It didn’t fly very far.
Another time he industriously tied short threads of different colors to the legs of two dozen cucarrones. They all started flying in the classroom, fleeing, little colorful threads buzzing in the air. “It’s Christmas,” he said.
I never heard of the snakes, spiders or bumblebees ever hurting anyone, but we still feared them. The cucarrones were completely different, though; like the frogs, we knew they were completely harmless.
Before they were cucarrones, though, these creatures lived different lives, underground, as grubs (chizas). The chizas were five or ten times bigger than the cucarrones they morphed into. If you digged, you’d find them. They were so disgusting that you never wanted to dig and, if you really had to, you’d better use a shovel. I regret that I must tell you that I've read that in some parts of Colombia people eat them. Ugh.
I’ve also read that the cucarrones have disappeared almost entirely from Bogotá. I read that the great thrushes, who feast on them (as well as on the frogs), have decimated them. My guess is that it’s probably just the city’s growth. The thrushes may be doing well, but so much for the silly cucarrones.
It's been about fifteen years since I left the savanna.
Last year I went back. I wanted to visit the fields but they are gone, conquered by buildings. The single-lane dirt road that thirty years ago led to our house has gradually morphed into a six lanes highway. They took away my father’s palm trees.
I wonder what the people who inhabit those buildings would say if I told them about the creatures we used to find there. The snakes and frogs, herons and spiders, moths and cucarrones, have given way to dogs and house cats.
Instead, I went to see a play in an old theater we used to visit. In the intermission I got a glass of canelazo and mixed with the crowd, looking for a familiar face—perhaps some friend from school, now with their own kids, perhaps someone from university. I saw many faces and recognized nobody.
For a special occasion a friend in Vienna took me to a fancy bar. Everybody wore sophisticated outfits. They brought me a cocktail garnished with a goldberry (uchuva).
Uchuva plants grew in our garden, in the savanna, like a bad weed. They grow very fast! The Colombian name, “uchuva”, comes from the language of Muiscas, who cultivated them. I never thought much of uchuvas, and when I did think of them, it was to wonder how anyone could eat this shitty fruit. I much preferred a banana, an apple, an orange… anything.
I hadn’t seen an uchuva in years. And here, in Vienna, a lone uchuva, still partially wrapped in its dry leaf, floated on my elaborate cocktail. I grabbed its stem and brought it eye level. It was exactly like I recalled them.
My Austrian friend registered my surprise. “Cool, right?” he said. “It’s an exotic fruit, from Indonesia, I think. I quite like it.”
It used to be rare to find them here, but now they’re everywhere.
I learned to speak German, including the word for cockroach. I learned to ski. Learning to ski isn’t easy when you’re twenty-five the first time you see snow. I'm making ends meet.
I ride my bike among the trees along a pretty river on the way to work and sometimes, especially in Spring, I see herons. I stop and watch them hunt the fish that swim upstream. They come from afar and only visit us temporarily.
This summer in Europe has been sweltering. Yesterday I had to open the window to sleep.
As the mist of sleep was embracing me, I felt something on my neck, under my chin. I thought it was nothing, like when you think something is touching you and you check but there really is nothing.
But then I felt it's gnarly legs almost scratching me.
I sat up, startled, grabbed it with my left hand, and instinctively threw it against a wall. I turned on the lights and searched a while but found nothing.
It must have been a beetle. But the bugs here are different, not the silly old brown cucarrones. They are grayish, and their wings are shaped weirdly... I think their legs are weaker. They’re probably just as harmless, but I don’t know, at least not deep down inside.
It took me a very long time to fall asleep.

This City is Eating my Bones

Jake walks in, drops his leather suitcase on the floor, and takes his coat off and rests it on the back of a chair. As he’s sitting down, the alcoholic waitress comes by with a big smile.
“Jay! So good to see you!” She takes his hand and squeezes the tip of his fingers absurdly, not letting go.
He holds onto her hand and considers how absurd it would be if he kissed it. He laughs. “Hello, Andrea! So good to see you! Did you have a nice weekend?"
“I had to work. It was okay.”
He lets go of her fingers, clicks his glasses, and grabs the menu. She scuttles away to take an order at some other table.
Tuesdays the bar is mostly empty. Four or five men in suits stand by the entrance, talking loudly, as if they owned the place. They talk in English with thick accents: German, Indian, Italian. They reek of cologne and their hair is thick with gel. Jake never liked the scent of cologne; what are you trying to hide?
A minute later a short woman shows up. “Hallo,” she says. “Waiting for someone?”
Jake regards her briefly. He doesn’t remember her. She’s younger than Andrea; probably even younger than him. Her arms are covered with tattoos. She straightens her back.
“Not today.” He reopens the menu. “Hmm. I’ll get some food.”
The waitress fishes a small notepad and a pen and looks at him at the ready.
A whiff of cigarette smoke sips in through the window and reaches his nostrils as he flips the pages. Jake is cursed with a very sensitive nose. “I’ll get a number three and a small number eighteen.”
She jots the numbers down. “Got it.”
She starts walking away but, just before entering the kitchen, turns and comes back to him. “Hmm, anything to drink?”
He smiles. “Yes, please. A Budvar.”
She fishes the notepad from her apron and straightens her back again as she writes down on the yellow pages. As she’s putting it away, she drops the pen. Jake picks it up from under the table and hands it to her.
“Entschuldigung,” she says.
Jake just smiles and nods.
Despite the suits, the bar is fairly quiet. This fits Jake, who needs to think. He feels relieved to be away from Lauren.
Lauren the hag. Out just having drinks with some friends from high school flying through town, haven’t seen them in ages. Some such.
She’ll be back very late; Jake will pretend to have found sleep despite all the noise she’ll involuntarily make trying to find her pajama in the darkness.
The young waitress brings a bottle of beer and pours half of it into a tall glass. Jake takes a sip of mostly beer foam and starts playing with the bottle, rolling it on the wood trying to match the beat of the Latin jazz coming out the speakers on the wall.
A couple in the sofa by the corner talks amiably. The woman is chubby. The man has no hair. His eyes jump suddenly from the woman’s generous cleavage to Jake. He gives Jake a cold, perhaps menacing, stare. Jake sighs silently and looks away.
A small scruffy dog passes by, smelling the floor as he drifts tiredly. Jake, who is fond of dogs, tries to get its attention but the dog ignores him and disappears behind the corner.
Looking back on Valentine’s day makes Jake’s blood rush up. How dare Lauren do that to him? He hates her. He lifts the glass to drink and the rim hits his two top front teeth. After a big sip he breaths deeply. So disappointing! Showing up drunk? Very drunk! The fuck was that?
Where did they go wrong? Is this whole bullshit his fault? He sighs and drinks more beer. Why? He is very upset. He loves her. He’s very upset.
It starts raining outside. Jake doesn’t mind the rain. It cleans the city.
Andrea walks by and sits in the chair across from Jake. “Tell me, Jay, how was your weekend?”
“Great,” he says slowly. “I read a book. Pretty interesting.”
“That’s great.” Andrea eyes him through her glasses, squinting. “I don’t really like reading but I’m glad you enjoyed it. I like audio books, though.”
Jake nods.
“I like your new haircut,” says Andrea.
“Thank you,” says Jake, and smiles.
He turns to look at the girl with the tattoos, who is now sitting behind the bar looking down into her phone, the light of the screen shinning brightly on her face. “Who is she?”
Andrea turns. “Irina? Our new waitress,” she says. "She’s friends with the owner, I think they’re family.” She leans close to Jake. “Tell you the truth, I don’t know if I like her.”
“I see.” He pours the remaining beer into the glass. Why won’t Andrea leave him to his thoughts?
“Next weekend I’m gone,” she says, gleaming. “I’m skiing in Tirol!”
“Tirol? That’s awesome,” he says, drinking his last sip.
Three men enter the bar and walk past the suits, their raincoats dripping over the tiles and leaving a trail of dark spots from the entrance to the seats they take at the bar. Irina puts her phone away and starts talking with them.
“I really need to get away,” says Andrea, ignoring them. “So much work! I need a break. I need the mountains, you know?” She sighs. “This damn city is eating my bones.”
“I hear you.” Jake looks straight into Andrea’s amber eyes, thinking of Lauren, before she stands up to go and rescue Irina.

Out of Salmon

Daniel pulls the handle and drags open the heavy glass door. After treading neglected cobblestones under the Caribbean sun for almost two hours, he rather enjoys the refreshing cold blast he gets as he enters the café.
It smells of coffee and puffy croissants. He has been visiting this café, the best he has found in the old town, almost every morning for the last week.
Two groups of locals wait in line. The first group begins to place their order, discussing options among themselves, occasionally pointing at the menu in the wall. The woman behind the counter looks past them at Daniel. “¡Hola!” she says, smiling at him.
Daniel forces a smile. “Hola.”
Somewhat surprised, the three people at the front of the line stop talking and turn backwards briefly to eye Daniel. One of them frowns slightly.
The cashier turns her smile to them and continues taking their order. With many hours to kill and nothing better to do, Daniel waits patiently at the back of the line.
When he gets his turn he asks for the usual: a cortadito and a sandwich.
“I'm sorry,” says the girl, and her thick lips curve into a sad smile. “We are out of salmon today.”
Daniel shrugs lightly. “Oh.”
“Mark,” calls the woman, turning. Today she's wearing her black curly hair in a bun. “¿Todavía hay salmón?”
“No,” says a man grinding coffee by an old espresso machine at her right, shaking his head. “Se acabó.”
She turns back to Daniel. “Sorry, we ran out,” she repeats.
Daniel considers the menu behind her.
“You can try the tuna salad, if you want,” she offers.
“Hmm... okay. Yeah, let's do that,” he says and he nods, pleased. “In a wrap.”
“In a wrap,” she says, clicking numbers in a modern touch screen in a shinny white case bolted into the wooden counter. “What's your name?” she asks.
“Dan,” he replies, like every other day.
“Dan.” She writes it down in the screen.
He gives her a bill and she gives him change. The coins make a clinking noise against the glass bottom of the tips jar.
“Gracias,” he says, looking into her eyes.
“Gracias a tí,” she replies, looking down.
He turns to survey the café. It is somewhat full today, but a few tables are still free. He sits down on a metal chair that was given a coat of bright red paint some years ago. As he drags his weight to the table, one of the chair's legs screeches loudly as it cuts against the old black and white tiles.
Daniel fishes a book out of his satchel and tries to read. Instead, he ends up overhearing the American couple next to him, who have been looking at a map and discussing their plans for the day. The husband opines confidently that what the old town could really use is more trees and fewer cars. The wife loves the fact that they have cats in every street and these cats seem to be doing pretty well too, I wonder who feeds them, cause they're actually relatively healthy, if you think about it, although it does make it very obvious that all house cats back in America are really very obese, wouldn’t you say?
Every minute, or so, Mark, the guy operating the espresso machine, calls out people's names. As they approach, Mark instinctively wipes his hands on his apron and, with a smile, hands them out cups, wraps, croissants, and sandwiches (but none with salmon; they ran out).
“Excuse me, Dan,” calls out the cashier across the room.
The red chair wobbles lightly as he looks up and smiles. “Yeah?”
“Will you want your coffee with your food?”
“Hmm, sure,” he says.
“Or before?” she asks.
“Oh, I see,” he says. “Yeah, whenever it's ready. It doesn't matter.”
She nods and he goes back to his book.
Classic salsa starts playing from some speakers, filling up the room, drowning the shrill screams of a toddler in a stroller by the door to the patio. The American couple gather their belongings and make their way out to the sunny streets.
A small plate lands gently on Dan's table, next to his glasses; he looks up and sees that the woman has brought him his coffee. It has a heart drawn in the foam.
“Que aproveche,” she says and smiles.
“Thank you!”
“Hoy estás solito, eh, Dan?” She starts picking up plates from the other table.
He nods sadly, somewhat taken aback and trying to hide a frown. “La niña... she had to leave.” He doesn't know what else to say so he clears his throat.
The cashier nods. “I see.” She smiles sadly, with understanding and compassion. “Such is life, eh?” She shrugs.
Dan lets out a sigh and tries to recompose himself. The woman is too young to really understand it. “Ya le llegó la hora de irse,” he hears himself repeat.
“I'm sorry, Dan,” she says, emphasizing his name. “Would you like a glass of water?”

The Fountain

Close to the main square in the little Swiss town where I live there's a small drinking fountain. I walk by it on the way to the train every day; I walk by it on the way back home. It stands there in a corner like an afterthought​, a small stream of water always flowing through it.
Maria says I'm like a dog, says I can't go by a water fountain and not drink, says I'm always thirsty. I guess I like the refreshing feeling on a hot summer day. I do it mostly just to clear my mouth, clear my mind. I think I'm more like a fish.
Maria told me that she once explained to someone that they don't have seasons in Colombia: the weather is always the same, the sun always sets shortly after six. “How boring,” said this person, who had grown up in New England, enjoying the drastic changes, looking forward to Summer in Winter and vice versa.
Maria was upset. She said not having seasons was perfectly fine, nothing boring about it. You can do whatever you want, whenever you want. Besides, you get tropical fruits all year round, and why wouldn't you like that?
Come winter, they shut off the water in the fountain in the little town where I live: for four, five, months the faucet stays dead, like the leafless trees around it.
Well, this morning, trotting over cobblestones, rushing to my train, I saw it spouting water again! Another year has passed.

Hotel Review

★★☆☆☆
Check in was easy; the smooth guy at the lobby, Brian, friendly. The location, just a few blocks from Central Park, is great.
The sound isolation between rooms is a joke, let me tell you. You can practically hear a pin dropped a few rooms across. When someone flips a coin, you can tell it's a quarter and landed heads; pay attention and you can probably tell how many times it turned in the air. Woosh, woosh, woosh, woosh, woosh. The woman from Room 718 just lost the bet so she’ll come with her husband and meet his friends for the game after all, even though she doesn’t really care for them, they're kinda lame, suburban, the only one she kinda likes is Cindy, Mark’s wife, she's really clever and funny, but you said she's not coming, so what's the point, I don't see why you like them so much. We can hear the husband roll his eyes and suppress a sigh. That's how bad the isolation is.
The nine-years-old boy from 712 keeps joyfully whistling parts of Vivaldi’s Summer; he saw a film where they played it and now it's stuck in his head. Somebody, different room, fires back, whistling the military tune from the theme of The Bridge on the River Kwai for a minute or so. The boy, 712, gets the memo and, for a while, all is silent, we only hear the heat pumps, and a small van down in the street that honks thrice at a cab. Then a Japanese guy in 702 bites into an apple and the woman from 718 lets out a loud fart and starts dropping some bombs. Splash! She had Italian for lunch, penne all’arrabiata, and two thirds of the tiramisu, by the sounds of it.
In the city that doesn't sleep we get 705 on the phone until the wee hours of the morning. He won’t register any interest in the loud complaints from the mattress in 702 that stop when 704 knocks on the wall seven times. We can all hear the resignation from the sweaty couple in 702 as they decide to call it a night.
705 doesn't care: he keeps yelling into his mobile phone, clutching it tightly. I can hear even the Indian accent of the guy at the other end of the line, probably short and a bit chubby, wearing a plaid shirt and corduroy pants, an architect, if I had to guess.
The architect is an old friend of 705 and the proud father of two boys, ages seven and ten, who like to play ball. He takes them often to the dog park in Union Square; the boys dream of having a dog of their own, but, for now, watching through the fence in the park other people's dogs smelling each other's butts and chasing sticks and balls will have to do. 705 and his wife have two large dogs of their own, a luxury in this place, but the architect hasn't thought of introducing them to his kids.
Hang on, here comes the lift again. It spat out four very drunk people. One of them is very pissed off but there's no telling why; the other three sound quite happy, the way they walk. They split into rooms 715 and 717 and go to bed without brushing their teeth.
Where was I? Oh, yeah: we've learned, from his conversation with the Indian guy, that 705's marriage is crumbling; his wife just came back from her business trip through Europe, where she had an affair with her boss. Barcelona! Paris! Florence! The sights! It must be tough to keep it together. I want to go give 705 a hug.
I also want to go set his two dogs on fire. Hush up! Sleep deprivation is no laughing matter.
The room is clean, as far as the eye and nose can tell. Also spacious, the ceiling very high, like a concert hall. I just started playing The Four Seasons. Ha. The windows are big and take in the sun that reflects from the building across 58th street. Has running water? The bedding is good, though the mattress a bit hard. Ask 702. Did I mention the noise problem?
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The Thrift Shop

“Una pausa?” Jane, face up on the grass, looks at the sky.
Daniel clicks his glasses and looks at her. “Sure.”
“I really like it,” she says. “Is Berenice a prostitute?”
He smiles. “Not saying!”
“What was his name?”
“Caicedo.” He hands her the old book.
She examines the cover, which has a drawing of a young woman, large breasts, taking off or putting on, you couldn’t tell which, a shirt.
Save for a few families, the park is empty, a refuge from the big city chaos. It’s Thursday afternoon; everybody’s working.
Daniel hasn’t read Caicedo in many years; the prose makes him feel alive. “I find it very refreshing.”
“How so?”
“He uses a lot of Colombian slang,” he explains, his back against a cherry tree.
Jane nods. She had to keep asking him about many words.
He turns and looks at her.
“The story is really intense!” she says. “I wonder where it’s going...”
The grass is loaded with yellowing cherry flowers, relics of the bygone season, clinging to their fading pink. Daniel picks one up and throws it at Jane, who closes her eyes instinctively.
“I like your shirt.”
“Oh?” She peeks at him. “Thank you! It was my grandmother’s! She left me a million things.”
“Really? It looks great on you.”
He wants to hold her hand, lick her lips. This is why they came to the park! Working up some courage he reaches out and grabs a little twig that was nestled in her red curls. Defeated, he throws it away.
“All I have from my grandmother are two small British mugs, shaped like faces.” He sighs. “I looked them up; they stopped making them fifty-five years ago. One is a character from Dickens. They were in Colombia for decades; now back in Europe. One of them broke; they glued it together. In a strange way I think it makes it special.”
“Who glued it together?”
“No idea. It was like that when I got it,” he says. “I wish I had more things from her.”
Two young kids and a chubby man half a block away kick a ball back and forth. The youngest kid kicks poorly, forcing the older to chase the ball all the time.
“Hey, what’s the saddest moment in your life?”
She opens her mouth to speak but no sound comes out. Her lips close again. She thinks, briefly. “Boy, what a question!”
Daniel shrugs and laughs. “You’re right, it’s a stupid question!” Did he think this would bring them closer?
“I can tell you if you want to know,” she says. “Just... I don’t know if we should go there.”
Daniel nods. “No, of course. I’m sorry.”
Jane sits up and they observe the kids and their father, who are now sitting over a blanket, eating cake.
“Well, how about I tell you about my saddest moment?” asks Daniel.
She looks at him.
“Or, one of them, anyway,” he says to himself, to calm his mind, where several other ideas—infernal ideas borne of the bloody madness of Latin American violence—are sprouting and beginning to howl. He’d rather summon a purer kind of sadness.
“I was once in Arkansas, it...”
“Oh, boy, Arkansas?” She laughs. “Sad indeed!”
He laughs. “Arkansas is great if you’re into outdoors: beautiful parks, but... yeah, not my thing.”
Jane nods.
“Anyway, it was Mother’s Day. I was twenty-five. I was there for work. I could have flown back to Bogota but... I didn’t time it well: it was just Mother’s Day, no biggie, right?
“Back then Tita, my grandmother, still lived, though her mind was already beginning to nourish butterflies.” His left hand dances in the air, fingers wiggling randomly.
Their eyes lock for a second until Daniel looks back to the horizon. They both savor those timeless moments, when their eyes join—a little spark, a frail connection—before one looks away.
“She was sick?”
“Yep. It got a lot worse later. Some days she was okay, others she would forget what she was saying.”
“I see.”
“One time, a year before she died, she told us a story. It took a while: she would laugh and laugh between each sentence. ‘An elegant British man, very formal, ran down the 7th avenue. Suddenly, he slipped, falling hard on his back! It took him long to recover. A puddle started forming around him. A worried crowd gathered. Coming to his wits, he sat up and fished a hip-flask out of his vest. Don’t w’rry, it broke not! ‘Tis only blood thou seeth!’ ”
“Silly.” Jane smiles. “Hmm. Why was he British?”
“Couldn’t say.” He laughs. “But he was, as British as the Queen. The way she told it, it’s like she actually saw it happen.” Daniel could picture the man tumbling, under sepia skies of a Bogota of yore, his hat landing besides him on the cobblestones, Tita’s demented yet tender fits of laughter from the future rising in the background. The sound of her laughter was already starting to blur; how long would he be able to remember it for?
A young couple with a big black labrador walks by the father and kids. The boys run to the dog, who wags his tail vigorously. The father urges caution, following them lazily. The dog barks playfully and the youngest kid lets out an excited screech. They talk briefly to the dog owners before they start petting him.
“My saddest moment was ten years ago, a few before she told of the British man. My mother’s family would gather each year and celebrate Mother’s Day at Tita’s. I was stuck in Arkansas.”
Jane nods. He looks at her and then back at the kids.
“So I called them. I talked with a cousin, two aunts, my mother. ‘Happy Mother’s day; best wishes to everybody; yeah, I’m fine in fucking Arkansas.’ It was a bit sad, but okay.
“But when they put Tita on the phone... I just...” He sighs a slow sigh. “I broke down.”
Jane looks at him; she’s surprised by how green his hazel eyes look under the afternoon sun filtering through the trees.
“I found it hard to speak. She said it was a pity I wasn’t there: she had many croissants. You see, they teased me, since I was little, that I always ate all the croissants.” He smiles. “I guess I did.”
“She teased me, playfully, and I just couldn’t say much. I thanked her for all the croissants. She said they’d serve ravioli. I always loved Tita’s ravioli. ‘Were you here, Danny, you could eat all the ravioli you wanted!’ she said. I just couldn’t do it: I had to hang up. I did say goodbye, but it was pretty abrupt. She said she hoped to see me soon. Click, that was it.
“I fell on the carpet, a broken piece of furniture, and spent hours crying. I don’t know why I was so sad. I mean, it is nothing, really; I’d see her one or two weeks later. But I just...” He trails off.
“That’s very sweet,” offers Jane.
“I think that’s the saddest moment in my life.”
“Do you remember your dreams?”
They’re eating breakfast in the patio of a café. The patio is full of puddles but it no longer rains.
Jane is wearing a floral dress. Her hair is a mess. “Not really,” she says. “Only as I’m waking up.”
She smiles suddenly. “Actually... there’s a special place that I often dream of.” She takes a sip of coffee. “It’s so exciting whenever it turns up in my dreams! It’s very realistic, with a life of its own, and very consistent. I never told anyone about it.”
Daniel nods as he drinks orange juice through a straw.
“It’s a huge thrift shop freak house. They sell all sorts of unusual stuff, everything broken in some weird way but still awesome. It’s dirt cheap too. This morning I was there, buying a necklace and a stuffed crow.”
He laughs and reaches for his almond croissant. “Cool!”
“I wake up trying to remember where it is, making plans to visit, wondering, confused, whether it actually exists.” She smiles. “It doesn’t, unfortunately.”
“Bring me there one day!”
“Whose birthday is it tomorrow?”
Daniel smiles, blushing.
“I’ll make you ravioli,” she says, “if you want.”
He takes her hand. “That would be great.”
They start walking to the cinema.
“What I should really do is make you breakfast,” she says. “I really like raspberries. Do you like berries? I like them all. Strawberries, blueberries, cherries, you name it. My favorites are raspberries. Wait, are cherries berries?”
Daniel laughs. “I don’t know.”
“I had such a joyful childhood,” she says. “I really love my parents, both of them. They were great.”
“I’m glad, baby.” He squeezes her hand.
“One time my mom came from the supermarket with big brown bags. This was shortly after we moved to Boston,” she explains. “I was four years old, turning five.
“As she was putting things away, she looked at me and asked me: ‘Do you know what day it is tomorrow?’ I didn’t know. ‘Guess whose birthday it is tomorrow!’ I had no idea. ‘It’s yours!’ she said, excited.” She laughs. “I was so thrilled! It was my birthday!”
Daniel looks at her. It fills him with joy to see how happy she is talking about her childhood.
“In the morning she made this wonderful breakfast. I remember sitting in the table, waiting. She served me all this fruit with my special birthday breakfast. It was awesome! I was ecstatic! I remember thinking that the raspberries were the best part.”
They stop in an intersection. A small crowd starts forming around them, waiting for the light to change.
“We’ll stop in the supermarket,” she says. “I’ll make breakfast tomorrow, you’ll see. You can eat all the croissants.”
“Read me a bit more, would you?”
In a big park, Daniel and Jane sit on a bench under a sycamore tree in a big field. The day is windy but very hot. A trail across the field sees its share of occasional visitors.
An owl is stitched on Jane’s bag. She takes a small book out and reads a story about a guy collecting exotic birds in his attic, an exiled king losing his kingdom.
“Interesting.,” says Daniel pensively as Jane sets the book down. “I like it.”
She leans her head on his shoulder and they remain silent for a minute.
“See that woman?”
Daniel turns slightly. “The mother?”
Jane nods. “She’s so beautiful...”
Sitting over a blanket facing them, not far, a slender woman in a white dress cradles a very young baby—one or two months old. A black stroller is stationed next to her. She rocks the baby ever so gently. The baby sleeps.
“It’s lovely how she takes care of him. She only has eyes for him; he’s her whole world,” she says. “It’s so nice to see, don’t you think?”
“She seems very happy.”
Jane nods, rubbing against Daniel’s shoulder, as they watch in silence.
“You once asked me about my saddest moment,” says Jane eventually. “I’ve thought about it. I’d like to tell you, if you want.”
“Sure.” He takes her hand, anchoring her to the present.
“I’m not sure it’s the saddest moment but I want to tell you about it. It is one of my earliest memories, but I remember it very clearly.”
She thinks briefly.
“When I was six I had to stay at school after class every day; my parents worked late and I was too young to be on my own. I’d sit in the cafeteria with a few kids doing my homework. Most kids were a bit older. I didn’t really know them—I was relatively lonely, living my own private world.
“One day one kid started crying hard. Two adults went to talk to him, tried to console him, but he just kept crying.”
“Why?”
“No idea. I couldn’t hear them, they were a bit far. He wasn’t physically hurt or such, just very visibly distressed. He looked very sad...”
The mother in the park starts humming a tune. The wind, rustling the sycamore leaves, lets only the silhouette of the melody reach Jane and Daniel.
“As I watched him, a shadow crept over my skin. I didn’t know him but I sensed his sadness very intensely, like I could see it in the air, a heavy gloom, flowing out of him, surrounding me, conquering everything. I felt so desolate! I felt like I was inhaling it, drowning in it, somehow taking in the weight of his sadness, of the sadness of the universe. I felt crushed! I didn’t move at first, just felt despair rise gradually inside, but I finally I burst to tears.”
“I’m very sorry.” Daniel caresses her palm.
Jane smiles. “One adult came over and asked me what was wrong. It was difficult to speak, like I had something crammed in my throat. I was so embarrassed! Maybe I didn’t want to admit to staring at stuff that had nothing to do with me?
“Hmm. I think it’s really just that I had no idea why I felt like that. I said I couldn’t say why but I felt very sad. I was shaking! I thought she would scold me, like I needed to justify it. And I couldn’t. She wouldn’t understand; heck, I didn’t understand!
“But she nodded compassionately and said something reassuring, like ‘Yeah, it’s okay. Sometimes people just feel sad for no reason.’ ”
Daniel takes his hand away to wrap his arm around her shoulders. “That’s a very beautiful story, Jay.”
“I think that’s when I first realized how spontaneously sadness can materialize and how tangible it can be.”
The mother sets her baby in the little carriage carefully. After folding and stowing away the blanket, she peers into the stroller, to assure herself that all is good. In silence, Daniel and Jane watch them slowly drift away. The sycamores swallow them.
“I told you the story,” she says, “because I wonder what it says about me. People sometimes assume I’m cold, or overly protective of my emotions, almost selfish.
“But it’s rather that I love everyone, especially strangers, immensely—sometimes more than I love myself. When I feel my own sadness, I often feel just like that day, unable to understand why.”
“Oh, whoah, look at you!” says Jane as Daniel rushes to her, looking at his watch. “Who could recognize you!” She smiles.
“Oh, come on!” He laughs. He spreads his arms. “I am king of time and space!”
She laughs.
He winks and kisses her.
They start walking through a small park, the grass packed with dry leaves the trees have shed.
She laughs, shaking her head. “You know? I almost forgot the tickets! I realized as I was locking the door out of my apartment.”
“Phew.” Daniel smiles. “Hey, you look so handsome!”
Jane is wearing a black dress under a purple shall. “Thank you, baby.” She blushes slightly. “So do you! I love your coat!”
“Thanks!” Daniel has a dark green wool coat. “It was my grandfather’s.”
“Really?” She eyes it more closely.
“Yeah. I don’t know how old it is. It’s English; Scottish wool, I think.”
“Like your grandmother’s mugs?”
“Yeah!” Daniel smiles. “I never thought about it, but yes. Suppose they bought them in the same trip?”
“Well, it’s beautiful.”
“It’s missing a button, though.” He points at a spot where a few threads, deflated whiskers, hang out. “Here.”
“Oh. I wouldn’t have noticed, you can’t tell.”
They pass a water-breathing dragon and, having some time to kill before the opera, enter a café. They take black stools by the bar. The sun is beginning to set.
“Were you close to him?”
“What?”
“To your grandfather.”
He laughs. “Never met him; cancer took him a year before I was born.”
“Oh.”
“And yet I wear his coat proudly. Isn’t it weird? I wonder what it means.”
“Well, it looks great on you.”
He smiles.
“Gentleman, miss.” A waiter bows his head slightly.
“Two espressos, please.”
The waiter nods and glides to the grinder.
“What did he do?”
“My grandfather? Taught law in a university. He was somewhat celebrated, I think; I’m told he was reserved and distant at home yet very dear to his students.”
“I see.”
He points at the missing the button. “I should bring it to a tailor, have it mended,” he says.
“I’ll be happy to fix it for you, Danny. These buttons are very pretty. You have the missing button, yeah?”
“Eh, nope.”
“Oh. I don’t know if we’ll be able to buy it.” She frowns. “Wonder if they still make them.”
“Well, this is my coat now. Suppose we used a completely different button, maybe one from your grandmother’s red coat?”
“Hmm.” She smiles. “Yeah, I’d like that.”

Shadow's Night of Many Tricks

Three young men and one woman waited for their train.
“Damn, it’s cold tonight,” said the shortest man, his hands stuffed in his pockets. He couldn't wait to be alone with the woman.
“It’ll snow tomorrow,” said the woman and smiled.
“We’ll see,” said the tallest man, checking his watch. “I'm hungry; it’s good we got some food.” He turned to the woman. He had been secretly in love with her for the best part of the year. “Would you hand me my piece?”
The church bells started ringing in the distance.
The woman set a big paper bag on the floor by the bench. The bag had the name of a restaurant printed in red and black on the sides. She started taking things out of it and distributing them. “Joe, you’re cheese, right?”
The third man, who was sitting on the bench, coughed loudly. The warmth of his breath rose and disappeared under the moon. “Yeah.”
She gave him the piece with cheese.
He took his black wool gloves off and reached out. “Thanks!”
They all started eating and waited in silence.
The yellow light of the train appeared in the horizon, cutting through skeletons of birch trees. The blades reverberated as it approached. When the train came to a full stop, they climbed in. Once its doors had closed with a puff, the beast of steel resumed its journey, rocking to the gentle rhythm of the rails.
“Fuck, I left the bag,” said the woman and, grabbing the nearest pole, turned and tried to look out through the frosted glass. The bench and the bag besides it were already too far behind to see.
In a sunny day in spring Shadow ran by the creek, chasing Bobby, Cindy, and Charlie clumsily; butterflies flew away as the kitties ran among daisies and lilies.
Mother called out to them. The kitties meowed and rushed to her. She was hunting a pair of mice.
The mice and Mother were the first ones to disappear. The bright day got a little darker; a rattling sound grew louder and louder, replacing the voices of the birds in the trees. Bobby disappeared, and then Charlie, and Cindy, leaving Shadow alone. The noise of the train finally woke Shadow up; the sun was gone, the scent of wildflowers replaced by that from the wood on which Shadow’s tired bones had slept for some hours, in the small shed by the tracks. As he stretched his legs lazily against the logs, memories of his dream vanished.
It was cold and he was hungry but it no longer rained. It was time to go play tricks.
He came out on the rooftop of the shed. It was dark but this didn’t matter much; his amber eyes adjusted well and, in any case, he navigated mostly by smell.
After a minute or two, he jumped to the top of a wall, on which he walked swiftly, his long tail drifting in the air behind him, slowly swinging left and right. From the wall he jumped down to a rusted tractor that had been frozen for decades and finally back down to the wet grass.
Shadow went down to the channel and, stretching his neck, wet his red hairy tongue several times. The water was refreshing, albeit cold.
He then set off to the main square, with its many odors, sweet and foul.
He ran fruitlessly after a crow which took to the white trees lazily. Perched on a branch, the black bird cawed twice.
Shadow looked up and meowed and took satisfaction in how deep and strong his voice sounded. One day he would finally catch a crow, like he thought Mother had, back before disappearing.
Shadow pissed under a bush with yellow flowers. The strong smell shadowed all others and he was quick to cover it with soil. He noticed a worm. He brought his noise to it and gave it a nudge with his left paw but decided to leave it alone.
He walked away, again towards the old town, stopping only to smell his way. Someone was cooking pork. There was a squirrel not too far. The bark of the birches and the aroma of roses reached his nostrils.
Suddenly, he caught wind of the delicious and mysterious whiff he had first perceived just a week before.
He drifted from his path, determined he'd this time actually find the source. This was the one scent a male cat was unable to resist. He tried to hurry but the enchanting fragrance was still distant and weak.
The wind turned and the smell dissolved in the cold of the night. He stopped briefly, nose raised to the wind. He sensed the bark—oils on his fur from the wood on which he had slept—, freshly dug ground, and, once again, a murder of crows not too far off. Some dog had peed on a nearby tree some hours ago but no other trace of him remained. Some ducks floated in the channel. He meowed once or twice. His moist black nose pulsed slightly, still lifted to the moon. An abandoned nest laid nearby.
Shadow backtracked for half a minute. His whiskers finally registered another change in the wind and brought back the desired scent. Inhaling deeply, taking in the luscious fragrance, isolating it from thousands of familiar odors, Shadow managed, once again, to lock in on it.
Arrested, he started following it, through alleys, ditches, fences, and bridges, a path that twisted and turned, a gnarled thread in a tangle of wool.
So was his resolve that he ignored the many olfactory warnings of the presence of several other male cats, older cats, bigger cats, hornier cats, meaner cats, nearby. He smelled them before he heard them and he heard them meow and hiss before he saw them but it didn't matter: his eyes would soon lay upon the angel his nose sang of.
A big calico cat ran into him from behind a bush. It had a half-healed wound across his forehead finishing just above his left eye.
The spell broke. Shadow tried to jump back, to scratch the attacker, scare him away, but ended up getting his paw caught by those of his enemy. The other cat bit his paw hard. Shadow flinched as the other cat bit hard and didn't let go—the excruciating pain immediately joined by the odor of blood. It all happened in an instant. Shadow finally managed to claw the mouth of the bully, causing him to recoil.
Jumping back, his arched back menacingly, Shadow puffed-up, a fortress of hatred. Blood dripped onto the filthy cobblestones. His tongue, a red flame, hung between his teeth as he hissed as loud as his vocal chords would, whiskers and ears cautiously retracted. He did his best to ignore the throbbing pain from his paw.
The other monster, eyes locked with Shadow, alternated between hissing back and snarling, returning the threats and showing Shadow the saber-shaped canine teeth that had just drawn blood. Its tail raised vertically until the very tip, which bent at an angle.
Shadow had but a split second to assess the situation. They were not the only cats—there were several others—and they’d all be in this strange vicious trance; at least two others were closing in on them, though he could not yet see them.
Shadow started slowly backing away, still hissing, hair standing on end.
Accepting Shadow's surrender, the Calico turned and kept after the mysterious scent.
Shadow went back, limping. He hid in a field near a scarecrow wearing a red helmet and, thinking of Mother, licked his paw, which hurt like hell, until the bleeding stopped. One day would come when he would be the one to dispel the other cats.
“Meow!”
“Here, kitty!” said a woman as she saw Shadow across the street. She had an old blanket wrapped around her and laid on a mattress on the street by the green wooden gate leading to a toy store that wouldn’t open until Monday. A man sat next to her, smoking.
Shadow crossed the street and approached them cautiously, limping slightly. They hadn’t showered in many days and their several layers of clothing hadn't been washed in even longer. They had eaten recently; they might still have food, maybe in the old bag resting between them. An open bottle with something foul rested besides the man.
The woman sat up and reached out to Shadow, brushing her thumb against her index and middle fingers.
“Meow!” Shadow walked to her, extending his long whiskers and nose, trying to read her intentions.
“Aww, isn’t he cute?”
Not saying anything, the man took a drag from his cigarette, gave the cat a brief glance through his thick glasses, and looked away letting smoke out of his lungs.
Shadow reached the woman and rubbed his whiskers and the side of his face against her hand. He liked the smell of her greasy fingers. His cheek was pushed up briefly and she felt the side of his teeth run gently against her skin.
“Here, kitty, kitty!” She smiled at Shadow. “Ernie, we ought to adopt him!”
The man laughed and his laughter turned into a coughing fit that nearly made him lose his glasses.
Shadow rubbed his head thrice against the woman’s hand and once against her leg. She scratched him gently behind his ears and patted his head. He purred briefly.
The man stopped coughing but still he said nothing. Shadow reminded him of Lucy, an old and stubborn cat he had once had, long ago.
How Lucy loved sardines! He remembered playful Lucy knocking down a potted plant, lazy Lucy sleeping on the bed by their feet, silly Lucy leaving the carcass of a small yellow bird by the bed, God knows how she had caught her. Elizabeth, the woman he lived with back then, had explained that it was a tribute.
He was assaulted by the memories of Elizabeth: days of long baths, love making, stinky cheeses, bottles of wine, and the smell of books and ink drying. He remembered how incredibly loud Elizabeth used to laugh her obnoxious laugh every chance she got and how, in the beginning, he used to go see her play the violin every Tuesday.
He remembered the big fight and how sad it had made him when fucking Elizabeth left him for the pathetic clown trombonist, taking Lucy with her. What a joke! Talk about depression. At least he didn't have to put up with her high-pitched laugh anymore, so there was that.
And then came the breakdown; they had loaded him up on so many kinds of medications, he was seeing little green men with spider legs jumping out of trees.
He hadn't thought of Lucy or Elizabeth in a very long time.
Shadow took a few steps towards the man, who had taken his hat off and was scratching his bald head with his eyes closed. The few hairs he still had were all white. His thoughts were interrupted by Shadow, who rubbed his head against the man's leg.
The man shoved Shadow aside violently, nearly kicking him, which sent a jolt of pain to Shadow's wounded paw. “Out of here, fucking piece of shit!”
Shadow fled for a few seconds, until he ascertained he was not chased. Shadow turned to look at the couple. The man held the bottle to his lips.
“Dammit, Ernie,” complained the fat woman, “he just wants to play. Why are you always so mean?”
“Leave me alone,” said the man, both to her and Shadow, taking another drag from his cigarette and returning to his troubled thoughts.
“Here, kitty, kitty,” said the woman, rubbing her fingers again. “Here! Mishy, mishy!”
Shadow licked his wounded paw and gave the beggars a long sideways gaze through his yellow eyes before deciding to continue the way he had come.
“Come back, kitty! Kitty!” The woman sighed as he got away. “See what you did, Ernie?” She shook her head as she laid down again.
The man offered the woman the bottle but she turned her back on him and ignored him.
Oliver left the pub, said goodbye to his four friends, and walked briskly. It was supposed to snow the next day.
As he walked past the couple in the toy store, two coins and a heavy screw jingled loudly at the bottom of a metal cup that the old man shook vigorously.
The old man tried to speak but only managed a cough.
“Spare a coin, sir?” asked the woman and tried to smile.
Oliver said nothing and walked past them.
He reached the station with five or six minutes to spare. His train was the last one running that night.
He glanced at two groups of people also waiting for the train, most of them drunk, as he was, and decided to put some distance between them.
As he approached the bench on the further end of the station, he noticed the paper bag from the restaurant. It stood sideways, the wind ruffling it slightly though not yet dragging it. It annoyed him that people didn’t bother properly disposing of their trash. Assholes.
As he got closer, he noticed a beautiful piece of glossy black cloth spilling out of it, perhaps a shall. He regarded it for a few seconds. This was actually an animal’s hide, it must have costed a fortune! It reflected the combined white light from the street lanterns and the ghostly moon.
Shadow, back in the prairie, his stomach full, ran, besides Cindy, after a little mouse.
It seemed to Oliver that the fur shook slightly. He scrutinized it but it remained still; the wind must have shaken it. Extending his leg timidly, Oliver tapped it gently with the tip of his pointy leather shoe.
In a single movement, Cindy and the mouse gone, Shadow, startled, jumped up and turned, on his feet, back in the painful present. After a night of many tricks, it was time to disappear!
Oliver, equally startled, took a step back and watched as the pitch black patch that was Shadow ran away as fast as his three healthy legs and his wounded one would carry him, fading out in the night.